To be honest, When I woke up on the first day of July, that’s a Wednesday. All the excitement for my upcoming celebration were replaced by some random thoughts, Most of it made me sad and emotional.
I thought,”Wait a minute,I am not getting any younger and 5 years from now I’ll be blowing candles for my 30th!” The scary part is that, I myself is not even sure if I am looking forward to the future, But I know deep down my subconscious mind that what worries me the most is the fact that the numbers for my age is getting higher as the year passes by and my goals and dreams when I was 6 years old are not happening the way I wanted it.
What are those?
Get married at 23 and have kids by 25 Ha-Ha! I definitely need to work on that, But see, what can you expect from a little girl who thought that raising a family at an early age is CUTE. Kidding aside, I still have a long list of my bucket list that is still yet to be accomplished and at that moment I took a long and deep sigh and got frustrated with no one but to myself.
What a way to reminisce about this stuff as a start for my birth month right? I’M THE WORST But as soon as I received messages from my friends getting more excited than I am on when and where I’ll be celebrating this year. All the worries and dramas were instantly flushed alongside the pepperoni pizza and squid sisig I had the night before. I got back and gather my psyche and just shook the entire negativity that I used to carry and just be THANKFUL.
Thankful that I was still given another year to live, Have the ability and resources to still throw a simple celebration with my friends and loved ones and have the people who matters the most to me are still looking forward and find my birth date special. I do believe that my birth date is somewhat unique. I mean, First it’s my birth date and second I hardly know anyone who is also celebrating on the same day.
I just recently found out that Doug Kramer and I share the same date so that makes us 2! Hahaha! I remember the month of March when I think I have 8-9 friends celebrating all at the same time in one month, Crazy! My cheesiest self got drain for all the greetings though. My point? Its not a common month or date for birthdays and I personally think that it’s one factor for my friends and loved ones to remember it.
Let me share that all the planning and preparation got me big time. The original plan is for us to celebrate in our condo unit but something came up (which leads to me and my sister having a little misunderstanding. But all is good now) I had to talk to their Management to reserve the pool area, but as fate would be so kind it’s only open till 8 PM! First thing that comes in my mind? Are you freakin kidding me?! That’s just the start of the celebration and knowing my friends so well, Some might even be sleeping during the daylight and will just walk in at around 11 pm. It’s a Saturday and even the celebrant and the best friend who is helping in preparing the foods can’t afford so little time, so I have no other choice but to change the venue last minute. (My invite stated a Saturday, but I was able to make a reservation on a Friday afternoon what a genius right?) I was almost on the verdict of cancelling everything because a lot of things came up that seems to be preventing things to happen.
The place, the weather (It was a stormy week , We had 2-3 storms that’s washing off Metro Manila and I literally prayed for the weather to be clear by the weekend or else I’m Fcuked) and my outfit Hahahaha! When I sent a group message I specifically told everyone that we’ll have a “Hipster Theme” and it was only last Saturday that I got myself worry-free. One thing that I’ve discovered about myself? I can pull off a party and work under pressure even the last minute. Proven and tested. Ha-Ha! So here you go,
Let me share my photo diary of how I spent my birthday , post birthday celebration and the people who contributed so much to make everything possible.
Amidst the pressure, last minute changes, sister drama and bad weather. I am still the happiest as I celebrate my 25th year of existence here on Earth. I used to think that after my Mom’s passing celebrating my upcoming birthdays will be nothing but getting drunk and be greeted on your social media accounts and be done with it the next day. 2 years have passed and quite frankly each year is trying to make a point that there is still a reason to celebrate and excluding yourself, Someone or others are still happy that they get to share another year with YOU.
Happy Birthday to me!
I only wish that all the pain, self doubt, regret, hate that you are feeling right carrying in your heart for the longest time may all vanish as you blow your last candle. For once, I know you deserve to be happy.
Being 25 is going to be awesome, that’s for sure. Enjoy!